Reconciliation

I think before I blog about today's reconciliation at Liston Hall, it's best I clarify the past posts of 'anger' e.g. 'Why' and 'Reestablishment'. The posts were regarding a friend whom I thought was close to me for a period of time but later I realised there are certain traits which I find incompatible with my definition of a 'friend'. That being said, I do not hate the person, or begrudge or feel anger towards this person, rather, this person has made a decision, and so have I. Simple as that.

Now, reconciliation today was great. Don't you feel important when you realise, God being the all-knowing being that He is already knows when you'll be coming to His house to ask Him for forgiveness? I just imagine Him taking out a big pencil and writing in my name for 11:45 am, 29 March 2006.

Hehe...but Im glad I got a priest who was filled with wisdom. The anger, hate, envy and what not all just went away. It's a feeling I haven't had in such a long time, I don't know how to feel at the moment, even as I blog this. It was also after reco that I realised if the love you have for someone is true, it wouldn't and shouldn't be tainted with jealousy, or anger, bitterness or hate. Only a gift so great from God can be twisted in something so ugly with the work of human hands. I guess I know His love for me is always there because I trust Him, and He trusts me. I trust Him to know what's best for me, and He trusts me to always return to Him whenever I stray.

It's stupid because a long time ago, when reading the parable of the Prodigal Son, I was so self righteous and thought "Man..what an idiot. Who would say such a thing to his own Father?! To ask for his share of his inheritance when his dad was still alive?!" The act was so selfish and thoughtless I never thought I could relate to it. I can relate to it now.