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Proverbs 21:19
Better to live out in the desert than with a nagging, complaining wife.


I dunno what to say.

Chapter I , Part IV - How Can We Speak About God

"All creatures bear a certain resemblance to God, most especially man..........Consequently, we can name God by taking his' creatures' perfections as a starting point"

I guess this is especially true. I look at humans all the time I tend to forget the beauty in animals. I always wanted a pet for my house, and Im so sure I'll get a dog when I move out. I mean...it's something about a dog's loyalty that touches me. Also, I kinda notice that dog owners always seem so proud to have their dog walking beside them. It's more than wearing a fancy watch or a branded suit. A dog's just always with you through thick and thin.

Reconciliation

I think before I blog about today's reconciliation at Liston Hall, it's best I clarify the past posts of 'anger' e.g. 'Why' and 'Reestablishment'. The posts were regarding a friend whom I thought was close to me for a period of time but later I realised there are certain traits which I find incompatible with my definition of a 'friend'. That being said, I do not hate the person, or begrudge or feel anger towards this person, rather, this person has made a decision, and so have I. Simple as that.

Now, reconciliation today was great. Don't you feel important when you realise, God being the all-knowing being that He is already knows when you'll be coming to His house to ask Him for forgiveness? I just imagine Him taking out a big pencil and writing in my name for 11:45 am, 29 March 2006.

Hehe...but Im glad I got a priest who was filled with wisdom. The anger, hate, envy and what not all just went away. It's a feeling I haven't had in such a long time, I don't know how to feel at the moment, even as I blog this. It was also after reco that I realised if the love you have for someone is true, it wouldn't and shouldn't be tainted with jealousy, or anger, bitterness or hate. Only a gift so great from God can be twisted in something so ugly with the work of human hands. I guess I know His love for me is always there because I trust Him, and He trusts me. I trust Him to know what's best for me, and He trusts me to always return to Him whenever I stray.

It's stupid because a long time ago, when reading the parable of the Prodigal Son, I was so self righteous and thought "Man..what an idiot. Who would say such a thing to his own Father?! To ask for his share of his inheritance when his dad was still alive?!" The act was so selfish and thoughtless I never thought I could relate to it. I can relate to it now.

Prof D

I've had this professor for 3 years now. Whenever it was time for exams, I'd go into my usual panic-sticken mode and hassle him with emails, questions about his notes, etc.
His almost always response if I couldn't figure anything out?
"Don't Worry!"
To which I'd say to myself silently "How could he say that? Of course I worry! It's my exam! It's my grade! YOU have nothing to worry about, but I do!"
Somehow, things worked out. Hey, I'm in my final year...and I couldn't be more blessed.
I think God may have used Prof D as a way of telling me..seriously, don't worry.

What if I can't do this by then?
"Don't worry!" "The birds don't worry about feeding their young. Look at them!"

What if I don't live up to the expectation of others?
"Don't worry!""I know you! You live up to MY expectations!"

What if I fail?
"Don't worry!""Am I not there to catch you everytime you fall? Have I abandoned you?"
What if things don't work out the way I plan?
"Don't worry!You are in MY plan! I have chosen you before you came to be"

Now I know these may not be the exact responses from Him. But still, why worry, when you can trust Him?

Hmm

Isn't it funny how the same thing can happen to different people?
Its funnier when they don't realise it.

Why?

Why can't you give any direct answers?
Why do you keep on answering questions with questions?
Don't you see I would have given you the benefit of the doubt if you just gave one, single answer?

Very well...if its not important enough to bother you, I shall do the best so that it doesnt bother me either.

Restablishment

I find it difficult to take in someone's sincerity. But then again, should sincerity be questioned?

Is it better to cry at a funeral and not mean it or to show your true emotions?

What if you believe the person has double standards imposed? As in he/she doesn't want to discuss a certain subject, but when it comes to you, they're poking at it?

Sometimes, phrases people say to me stick in my head forever, and I hold on to it because I believe in them.

"I want us to be friends"
"I love you as a friend"
"You're important to me"

What if their actions don't match the words? Should I let it go and assumed I was sweet talked? Should I remind them in the hopes that they'll keep their word?

blog of the month

every month..or whenever i feel like it..lol...i'll post up (do a c n p with no consideration for copyright laws) of a friend's blog..

this month's winner is.........
BELINDA!

...... I went see this particular brand of bra. The sales lady showed me a few range and ask me to try it on. I thought oklah, just try and if I really like it, then maybe I might buy it cause it was quite expensive. The lady lead me to the changing room and followed me inside. I was totally shocked!! She didn't even ask if she could come in or whatever and just step inside. I gave her this look that said 'Ermm, I'm not comfortable having you here' but she just said 'Never mind one, I can help you wear it properly and stuff' well she didn't say stuff but something close to that la.

I was like ok another person seeing my boobs. I feel so violated, as it is the other day I went for a medical check up I had to strip and let the doctor examine my boobs. Now this lady, sheesh ok fine the doctor was acceptable but this bra lady....I'm pretty sure I know how to wear a bra. Anyway moving on to the bra lady, after I put on the bra, she puts her hand into the bra to adjust my boobs. I was so speechless by then....she was literally groping my boobs and pushing it higher or something. She went on explaining a few others stuff which I was too shock to comprehend or even remember. Maybe this is something usual for people but for me its not. I must be more aware of bra sales lady the next time I choose to go buy a bra. So girls out there, just beware of bra sales ladies unless you don't mind having your boobs being gropped or a more polite way of saying it, touched. Just make sure you don't let them into the changing room thinking that they just wanna see only. Apparently not!! They also wanna have a feel of your boobs.

C K

Do C and K just have a thing for nipples, or is it just my nipples?

:P

Hehe..they don't read my blog.

Thanks

Its times when you're at your lowest that you see and appreciate the value of friendship.

Do you want the truth? Many months ago, my view on friendship would be that its over rated. I felt betrayed and I thought friends...good ones were extremly rare (of course I did realise Im not exactly good friend material myself....)

Its just that, I honestly gave up on establishing trust in my friendships, new or old. The betrayal honestly just shut me down as a 'look for the good' in people kinda person. I opened up myself, and I was rewarded with lies. I guess...I gave up on my friends..but they didn't give up on me. Lots of fluffy stuff huh? Heh...the story of my life....can actually be summarised in a string of words..

Loneliness, home sickness, discovery, disconnection, hope, paradise lost, inebriation, betrayal, rebound, selfishness, wishful thinking, serendipity, acceptance, separation, and rejection.

I think the negative descriptions I used could have been minimised had I only exercised...patience and trust.

But I forgot about the title of my blog. Give thanks where its due....thanks
(in no particular order)
Michelle
Cindy
Nursiani
Nancy

TV Numbs the brain

ever realised how watching tv can be like a drug which takes away the worries of the world?
heh..don't worry, if it is a drug, Im not addicted to it...im making this point cos i never saw it this way before.
tv makes the brain's output decrease by increasing the brain's input

yea...i think that summarises my thoughts on tv perfectly

It happened on a Wednesday, 15th March, 2006

III The Knowledge of God According to the Church

I thought I'd include this cos it's interesting

"...the Church, holds and teaches that God, the first principle and the last end of all things, can be known with certainty from the created world by the natural light of HUMAN REASON.Without this capacity, man would not be able to welcome God's revelation."

I think what this passage is trying to say is that, the very fact we even think in our minds about a Creator shows that there is a Creator. Man's quest to understand and worship unseen powers is evident in ancient religions. Why was there a need? We're all such physical beings...we need food, shelter,..we depend on our senses so much...but what drives us to consider a being that is all powerful and unseen? I'm sure we're all created with the desire to seek God.